Wednesday, April 28, 2010

A Changing Role...

Dearest Ryan,

I know it is not yet your "Month-day," and thus time for my monthly letter to you. But something important has happened lately, and I want to tell you about it now. (Also, writing this in the form of a letter to you is probably the most politically correct way to do it, so that Mommy doesn't get herself in trouble!)

After you were born, I started to think about what I would do about going back to work. I knew that I loved my job, the work I did, the children and families I worked with. However, I also knew that you had taken up residence in my heart in a way I never knew possible, and thus, I wanted to spend as much time with you as possible. Daddy and I talked a lot about what would be best for all of us, and we decided that going back to work part-time would be best.

I informed the people I work with about I wanted to do. The people Mommy worked with in the Cardiology department were very supportive and believed strongly that something could be worked out so that I could work part-time (3 days a week). However, sadly, Mommy's "other boss" in another department feels strongly that part-time positions don't work, and she put up a brick wall that made it impossible for Mommy to work part-time for the Heart Institute. (That is all Mommy is going to say about that, even though she really has a lot more to say!)

So, since I couldn't go back to work part-time, I resigned. I am now going to be the "Nanny" for your two cousins Julia and Caitlin. This means that I will get to be with you every day. It means you will get to spend a lot of time with your cousins and build a special relationship with them. And while I am a little sad to leave my job, my colleagues, the patients, and families, I am also relieved to know that I will be able to spend so much time with you.

I love you so very, very much Ryan. My most important job right now, and for the rest of my life is as your Mom. I know that one day I will return to "work." But for now, I am going to be right where I belong: with you.

I love you so much!



  1. We sure are going to miss you but you have to do what is right for your family. Staying home with my girls has been such a blessing and a joy I can't even describe. Enjoy every minute!!!

  2. They are little for such a short time. You'll be back to 'work' in no time! Congratulations on your new role. :)

  3. it is never easy Kristen. Know that the decision you made was made for a reason and enjoy every second. You will not reach the end of your life and wish you had spent more time at work. Best wishes for your new role!


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